I’ve given up some of my social media and already I can feel the withdraw of addiction. I tried to focus my energy into painting. Large scale paintings. It took me over a month and I’ve completed five of them. I felt proud of myself and accomplished. Although once posted online they did not get anything more then a handful of likes. I stopped and now think. Will a red heart ever be able to fulfill what I’m looking for or should I be looking for a deeper connection to community and audience. Either way, the paintings are not finished and so continues my journey.